After the car crash, Magda disassociates from herself, unable to feel pain or emotion. In this way, this scene brings to a head the state of being that Magda has fallen into at school and in her social life: she keeps her true feelings at arm’s length, not wanting anyone to discover that she is attracted to girls and therefore “different.” This self-estrangement seems to have become so extreme that, even in dire situations, Magda cannot access her true feelings or trust others with her emotions.