The narrator’s incompetence with the gun and his discomfort from holding it are more signs of his inexperience with actual violence. Bon and the narrator continue shooting into the darkness out of desperation to escape. Bon, however, knows that they will be captured. To protect the narrator, in keeping with his oath, he decides to surrender. Bon has tears in his eyes because he has failed at the only purpose that he has left in his life. Bon will live, but he will spend the next year, and perhaps longer, wishing that he were dead. This, for him, feels like his third and final failure in life.